I Am Not Your Medicine...

Why have an addiction that you can't resist...

Don't ail from something you know you can't desist...

I am a mere friend who can try & help in times of need...

Am not your medicine, you need to pay heed...

Time and again, I have reminded you of this...

Alas...my friend...you never understood this...

I will not get laden with the guilt, I am unworthy of...

You need to find your bearings...

Find what ticks for you, for once and for all...

Yet again I am telling you...

I am not your medicine...

Find a cure for yourself...

That has been destined...

La Culminación...

Thirteen years back I realized the power of never holding back and saying it all before it was too late. Before dear ones walk away forever...before another one wonders what happened...what went wrong... where were they wrong and the list goes on.

Few days back, a friend realized the same thing and decided to tell me something held back for many years. To tell you the truth, I wasn't expecting it. It took my by surprise.... stunned is the right word I guess. A brief call brought peace to something that had been tugging somewhere at the back of my being, all these years.

Hopefully the days of sudden questions greying my mind are behind me as I move ahead with "La Culminación".

Thank you dear friend for that call. It mattered...



Like Phoenix...I Shall Rise...

This is for you... The One Above...

I have a question for you. More often than not, you chose me as your contender for testing times. Why?? Have I not given enough tests already that you should let me rest for some time before you set up yet another battery of tests?

I may or may not get my answer from you. But here is what I want to tell you -

No matter how much you test me...no matter how many tough days you will throw at me...no matter how many times you will try to have a good time at my expense. I will not break down and fall.

Everytime you will pull me down...everytime you will try to make me bite the dust...I will hold fort and rise up like Phoenix. I may get dusty, my will may shake for a while, I may question what would happen around me....yet when the long, arduous night would near its end....I shall rise again.

Everytime you would throw a test at me, this is what I would remind you. I will keep rising until its time to finally be the ash.

You want to teach me a lesson...go ahead...

You want to break me... try your best...

You may see me grappling...you may see my tears...

But in the end you will also see...that I don't relent...

So you keep doing your bit and I will do mine...

I am a mountain goat and come what may...

I will not stop my climb...



My Queen...

It was always you..."My Queen"

Everytime the silhouette appeared in my dreams...

Even before it vanished...I smiled coz I had seen...

It was always you..."My Queen"

You made me smile...

You brought that twinkle to my eyes...

And even before I realized...

You found a place in my heart...

That I had kept vacant for my life...

Throughout my life...

I don't remember when I lost my heart to you...

I only knew I would not be able to live without you...

Not a moment...not another moment...

I just knew...it had to be you...

You can say that I crossed few rivers...

And crossed many mountains...

to forever be with you...

Oh! Can't imagine what would I do without you...

I may have told you umpteen times...

That you fill my days with the light of your laughter...

And every moment you spend with me...

I shine brighter...

Yet I would keep whispering this in your ears...

I would never leave any moment to admit...

You are so dear...

With dear ones and a ring as witness...

We've taken the seven steps...

And finally crossed the test of the litmus...

For better or for worse...

Till death do us part...

My Queen...I promise...

You will always rule my heart...

Every day...every moment...of our lives...

I will chose you..."Only You"

RP and PL (or I should say PLP)! This attempt is a small token of good wishes from my side. May God bless you with years of togetherness, happiness and good health. Cheers to a dear couple.

May you live happily ever after... Amen!!

And The Mountains Called Again...

The lore says that it is always the Mountains that call you. It calls the gypsy in you...inviting it for yet another tryst with the hues of green. My first date with the mountains was way back in April 2008. Simply fell in love with the bylanes of Mussoorie on a rainy morning.

But this post is not about Mussoorie. It is about a place less traveled. Well I traveled there for the first time and am sure it was just the first of the many more to come. It's amzing how the call of the mountain excites me despite the fact that I am a true born sea goat and love being near water. So when I got invited for a beautiful ceremony for a dear one, that too in a small town tucked away in mountains of east India, I had to say yes.

Mirik oh Mirik....you are so beautiful. A small town of good hearted people, you welcomed us with all the warmth and hospitality that you had to offer. Be it your tea gardens... or the dimsums that the lady at the corner shop offered (can you beat it that I stuffed 24 of those yummiliscious dimsums one fine morning)... or the calmness at the hill top... or the quiet lanes that I traversed at the middle of the night... or the soothing tea that I sipped away while I engulfed the scenic beauty around me... or the hotel terrace where I stepped every night to look at the beautiful star studded sky... or the calmness that greeted me at the Monastry. I can go on and on and yet some part of your beauty might escape my words.

The icing on the cake was the comapny that accompanied me to Mirik. Some old friends...made some new friends...found new relations... somec crazy nights...many cherished moments... and much more. All of it cannot be described here. All I can say is that I loved each day I spent there and would definitely be back to soak in more of its beauty.

Till you call me again... adios...