The Golden Rays...

In all the crazy, testing times... it's these golden rays that help me sail through. This is the sight that soothes me down and helps me move forward.

So here I am, seeking all the strength I can, from the one above. Would you shower your golden rays on me...

Closure

As humans, it's our tendency to look for some closure wherever we could not understand the "The End". We keep pondering, keep searching, keep looking for "what ifs" and "whys". Well I also have chapter like that. It had been on the back of my mind somewhere, creeping up at times in the past year and half.

I could never make sense of why it happened since I never understood the end and kept thinking will it ever. While what I got to know out of a sudden, does not make it any clearer but it does break away the haze laden window that I had been looking out of.

Someone sauntered in like a breeze, turned everything topsy turvy and vanished with the same speed. I kept asking why and there was always a silence that I heard as a response.

Last week I came across a revealation that sort of shook me but helped wipe away the haze from the window. Whatever I could search about the revealation, made everything even more confusing but helped me ease out the storm that was held up for so long.

While I was looking out for closure for so long that I forgot a saying - "Don't look for closure every time. It might not be there".  While the farce came to fore, the "Why" still remains a question and I don't want to look for it. I will not look for yet another closure as there might be none...

Let the door stay locked and chained, coz I ain't opening it...

Slipping Away...

As the season change and the winds go stronger, I see the sand slipping away. The beach is vast and it's mine for as far as I can see. Yet, the winds of change have surprised me. They blow away the sand to a far distant land....a land beyond mine and it feels like there is nothing I can do to hold back the sand.

Everyday when I take a walk at the beach, I see some part of it fading away...far away from me. How am I dealing with it? Well I don't know.

I guess, with every walk, I add in a prayer that what's mine, stays mine. I also ponder, does it want to stay mine or has no qualms walking away to a distant, greener land. At times, I fight to withold what's slipping away but it does not seem to have an effect that I am hoping for.

I don't know how things would pan out finally, but for now I think I'm trying my best - to fight or to accept, maybe running away or let it run over me.

It seems it is just the right time to take a break away from the chaos...may be more of running away from it or assimiliating what's happening.

So very soon am embarking on this wanderlust. A sort of getaway from reality. And the days of wanderlust would also feature here. Hoping for all of this to settle down itself and in a way that I don't see my beach fading away...or the sand slipping away...

Amen....