How You Keep Her...

Will keep it short & simple. Not that any creative juices are flowing or nerves are tinkling enogh to write this. On the contrary, it's the jangling nerves, a throbbing heartbeat & the greyness of a thought that has been eating me up for a while - the culprits.

What I'm going to write in next few lines is not a part of my creativity but it seems that someone has penned the state of my mind beautifully. Read this on FB Mindporn page and so I quote -

You must learn her.

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her...

The Outlier...

Well there is an outlier out there. Just like the word, way beyond those I came across these past years. Now the beauty of an outlier is that it can be on the either side.

What do I want? I want to know which side is this outlier on? If it's the right side then nothing can be better than that. But if it's on the wrong side, I do want to know one more thing...

Will the outlier sway?

I'm dying to find out the nomenclature of this outlier and thus the fact as to what does fate entails for me.

I think all I can do is wait and watch for a while....actually no... I've waited for quite some time ...If I can muster the courage, I will test it out and get to know....the question is....if only I can...

Singin In The Rain...

As I was slowly slipping into my daily slumber, I was suddenly awashed  by the sudden gush of happy winds. The nip in the air was back and I all I could see was droplets...all around me.

The rain made my day while it was on the verge of culmination. While the mets are calling it a result of some western disturbance but for me rain has a different connotation.

It washes away what's redundant and makes way for the new. It seems as if the universe has conspired to steer us clear off the weaklinks that hinder our journey up the curve of life. It not just brought the new moon eclipse but it also threw in the flavors of the rain.

Anyways, whatever has been planned for us will happen in the due course but at this moment as I go off to sleep, I have a smile on my face and a song on my lips..."Singing In The Rain...."

Tomorrow's going to be a good day...

Wishes...

It seems as if our lives have been intertwined from the day our paths crossed. We've flown to the heights & fallen down in the troughs almost at the same time. We've held each other, letting each other tide over the waves that keep crashing now and then...just like an anchor.

My mind goes back to 3 years from now when we were at the brink of a milestone - a personal one & a professional one. And life was never same again.

Looks like our lives have come full circle and yet again I find us standing at the onset of another milestone - a personal one & a professional one. Life would once again change forever. But this time, it's going to be different. This time, we'll have the time of our lives when we move forward & embrace what's in store for us.

So here I am... standing in a corner... smiling away to glory... holding a jar full of wishes. Some for you...some for me. Let's sit together and open each wish carefully. We'll keep the wrappers nicely folded...tucked below our pillows.

You never know, when the wishes would sprinkle good luck & happiness in our lives, it's the wrappers that would remind us of the delight.

God bless you Rachu...

When The Time Is Right...

Everytime my ambitious side comes to fore, I'm told to be patient. I'm told, "when the time is right", everything will fall into its place, the time is almost round the corner and so on so forth.

What keeps tinkering with my mind is the thought - is there actually a way to know whether the time is right or not. Be it the right job that you love and it obviously comes with great pay, or the soul mate that completes you, a vocation that brings smile to your face and warmth to your heart, or a much needed vacation that inwinds you and last but not the least, a much wanted fitness regime for a foodie like me who doesn't think twice before binging.



What could possibly be the right sign that tells that a change is round the corner? You start getting calls from recruiters, you run into someone who makes your heart skip its beat, a leaflet is slid down your door alongwith the newspaper and it states that somewhere classes are starting for your favorite vocation, a friend asks you to join him/ her for a getaway or suddenly a gym is opened at your work place.

The aspirations, ambitions, wants and/ or needs could be countless and so would the signs be. So is there a fool's guide to know whent the right sign is dancing right in front of you, coaxing  you to take the next step that will change the way things are?

May be or may be not....

So then what do you do? Close your eyes, cross your heart, take a deep breath and listen to what your thoughts have to tell you. If they are telling you to jump in and flow with the tide, that's your cue. And if your thoughts do not flutter you at all, you know that the time is not right.

Take a chance & see if it works for you. It might or might not...

If it does, then life changes its course and if it doesn't then don't let it get to you. Move on to the next thought and stay open to embrace the change that is right round the corner...

The New Love In My Life...

You are all that we could have asked for. Every time I look at you, the song - "Mere Ghar Aayi Ek Nanhi Pari" comes to my mind. Before you tip toed with that baby pout and twinkling eyes, all we had wanted was a healthy baby.

But somewhere, I was hoping for a girl cherub. I could see myself splurging on the clips, ribbons, booties and what not. I would visualize you with your tender curls and used to count the number of pig tails, I would get to make.

I could see you peeping into my almirah & pulling out my favourite spaghetti just because you liked it too and wanted to wear it. I could see a chubby bumble bee jumping over a sleeping me on weekends because that's when she could not see me asleep. I had already made a count of which traits she would pick from each of her would be family members - her daddy's love for chicken, her mom's cuteness, my attitude & granny's love for sweets.

And now that you are here, I can't wait to see what you have in store for us. Each day brings greater delight than the day gone by. Be it the doped out monkey look, or the arched eyebrow that I get when I'm too chatty, to the sweet pea smile you give when your daddy calls out your name, or the peek-a-boo game that you love to play with your mommy.

Every day when I wake up, my steps take me to you and when I come back home from an exhausting day, one glimpse of yours is enough to energize me. I look forward to move my fingers across your dainty, chubby cheeks, seeking out that rare gorgeous smile that you dole out once in a while.

Our princess!! I wanted to tell you that you are dearly loved and you make each day special with your presence.

There's a new love in my life and she's called Pinka!!

God bless you love....

Miss You Dada...

It's been 11 years. Every year when this day approaches, I think I'm going to sail through smoothly. I assure myself that I have mourned enough and I'm past the pain that the thoughts would bring in. I keep telling myself that there is no way that this one day would affect me so much since I think about you every single day.

But the truth is different. Every year when finally the clock strikes 12 at midnight, it seems that I travel back to that day when you moved on to a different world. I've come to realise that no matter how many years go by, no matter with how much of ease I can speak about that fateful night, I will never stop thinking about you.

How I wish, there was something that I could have done to stop you from going forever and I will keep thinking about this until it's my time to go. Another year, another night, but the truth still remains the same...

Miss you dada.... more and more with each passing year...

Rest in peace...